I often wonder why I do some things... like write this blog? I guess it's my answer to a journal, when I need to say something. Something I feel is important, even though no one is reading it. So important to me maybe? I guess so.
Or like trying to be a friend. That sentence says SO much. One shouldn't have to TRY to be a FRIEND. And yet I do. I feel compelled to keep working at some friendships, even though so many friends tell me not to.
And tonight I got burned. By people who for the last 8 years have called themselves my friend. I've been continually burned by them, but always "went back". Wondered if I was making more of something, if I was over reacting. But tonight I got my answer.
And it is amazing to me that people can be so blatantly mean to someone. Mean girls - live - and in 40-something adults. How sad. I am so thankful to have a strong circle of Christian women in my life. People who truly live their lives like Christians. It is they I need to lean on. They don't ask questions. They would never hurt me.
While I am very very very sad for what happened tonight - that they could hurt me like they did - I feel free. I don't have to bother trying anymore. I can continue to be friends with people who accept and love me for who I am. Life is too short to waste it on people who don't love you. TOO short.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Thursday, March 22, 2012
The Positive Pledge
My neice posted this this morning.... and I love it. Really ties in to my post from the other day. I wonder what the world would be like if we all took this pledge.. I am signing it. It's the only way to live life! Thanks to my amazing neice for brightening my day....
Monday, March 19, 2012
DH
I don't often post about tv shows. Last night I had the youth group over for a meeting, so I missed Desperate Housewives. I've been watching that show since its start, and am very sad watching the series wind down. Really hadn't thought about watching it online, until I saw a post by my neice about it. So I took some time this Monday morning and watched it. I cried the entire time. Don't think of me as shallow and stupid, crying for a tv drama. Don't judge. :-)
I am one of those people who sees shows dealing with tragedy, and it's very hard for me not to think about what I would do in the same situation. Lucky for me, I don't live on Wisteria lane, and my life is far from that of the characters.
But with the series winding down, the writers decided to kill off one of the husbands. One of the good guys. And watching that character try to come to grips with the reality of her husband's death, and of her young son now growing up without a dad, and of his friends as they remember all of the good times... it is just too much.
So I am taking this time to write about how much I love MY husband. The irony is, I often use DH when talking about him (dear hubby), and today's post is DH for the show.
If I'd thought about what I was looking for in a husband twenty years ago, I would never have described my DH. Lucky for ME, I didn't know what I wanted or needed, and didn't screw up! Ken is one of those stable, loving, funny, GOOD guys. A good Christian. A good dad. A good son. A good guy. Helps people out when they need it. Takes CARE of us.
I don't know what I'll do if I have to ever say goodbye to him on this earthly world. Life here just wouldn't be the same without him. I love him with my soul. He IS my better half. As he said the day he proposed "it's like before I met you, I was only half a person, but together, we are whole". So I would be missing my other half.
It's episodes like this one that make you realize that we can't take ANY day for granted. That we need to be loving those around us like every day is the last. Make the most of all that we have together. Because those days make those memories that will get us through anything.
And most of all, I thank God, for the Blessing he has given me in Ken. A crazy road my life had to take to get me to him, but I'm here, and for that I am so very thankful.
I am one of those people who sees shows dealing with tragedy, and it's very hard for me not to think about what I would do in the same situation. Lucky for me, I don't live on Wisteria lane, and my life is far from that of the characters.
But with the series winding down, the writers decided to kill off one of the husbands. One of the good guys. And watching that character try to come to grips with the reality of her husband's death, and of her young son now growing up without a dad, and of his friends as they remember all of the good times... it is just too much.
So I am taking this time to write about how much I love MY husband. The irony is, I often use DH when talking about him (dear hubby), and today's post is DH for the show.
If I'd thought about what I was looking for in a husband twenty years ago, I would never have described my DH. Lucky for ME, I didn't know what I wanted or needed, and didn't screw up! Ken is one of those stable, loving, funny, GOOD guys. A good Christian. A good dad. A good son. A good guy. Helps people out when they need it. Takes CARE of us.
I don't know what I'll do if I have to ever say goodbye to him on this earthly world. Life here just wouldn't be the same without him. I love him with my soul. He IS my better half. As he said the day he proposed "it's like before I met you, I was only half a person, but together, we are whole". So I would be missing my other half.
It's episodes like this one that make you realize that we can't take ANY day for granted. That we need to be loving those around us like every day is the last. Make the most of all that we have together. Because those days make those memories that will get us through anything.
And most of all, I thank God, for the Blessing he has given me in Ken. A crazy road my life had to take to get me to him, but I'm here, and for that I am so very thankful.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Another Blessed day...
I am sure that there are people out there who think that my positive attitude is "exaggerated", or an act. To those people I wish that they could find the Blessings in everyday life that I have.
I haven't always been this way. In my core, I think I have been, but there have been many times in my life where life got in the way of me being who I am deep down. I love life. I am thankful for all of the Blessings that God has enriched my life with. I take the ups with the downs, knowing that everying in my life has a purpose, and is part of His plan. I think that quitting last October has really allowed my inner me to shine again.
Today was a perfect example. Busy all morning, I uploaded and ordered pictures for scrapbooking, baked bread, cooked a Mexican dinner, picked up the living room, and then took time to run some errands. Being a beautiful day (outrageous at this time of year in WI - upper sixties!), I walked. We live in a small town, so walking is NOT a big deal. Great excuse to take time for some exercise, get fresh air, AND get my errands done.
So I headed out to my first stop - the library. Needed my next book club book, and thought I should get it ordered. So I headed in - to browse. Didn't see the book in the fiction section, so I picked up a gardening book to browse through this weekend, and headed to the counter. When I asked her to order the book, she realized they had one - in a different section - and went to get it for me. SCORE! Chatted with the librarian, got my reading material, and headed off to the bank.
Of course I know the bank teller (small town, remember), so we chatted about gardens, the weather, and all that good neighbor talk while she cashed my checks. Then I was off to the post office, where too - both the workers are acquaintances, so we chatted about the world as I got my stamps. It's amazing how those small interactions can put a smile on my face.
The walk home was beautiful - sun shining, birds all over. Days like this, as simple as walking around town doing errands, are to me a great Blessing. It is a Blessing that I've been able to move to part time work. It's a Blessing that we live in this amazing little town. It's a Blessing that the library had my book on the shelf.
So many people rush through life missing all of these Blessings. They expect things, assume things, and demand them. When what we all NEED to do is be thankful for them.
I haven't always been this way. In my core, I think I have been, but there have been many times in my life where life got in the way of me being who I am deep down. I love life. I am thankful for all of the Blessings that God has enriched my life with. I take the ups with the downs, knowing that everying in my life has a purpose, and is part of His plan. I think that quitting last October has really allowed my inner me to shine again.
Today was a perfect example. Busy all morning, I uploaded and ordered pictures for scrapbooking, baked bread, cooked a Mexican dinner, picked up the living room, and then took time to run some errands. Being a beautiful day (outrageous at this time of year in WI - upper sixties!), I walked. We live in a small town, so walking is NOT a big deal. Great excuse to take time for some exercise, get fresh air, AND get my errands done.
So I headed out to my first stop - the library. Needed my next book club book, and thought I should get it ordered. So I headed in - to browse. Didn't see the book in the fiction section, so I picked up a gardening book to browse through this weekend, and headed to the counter. When I asked her to order the book, she realized they had one - in a different section - and went to get it for me. SCORE! Chatted with the librarian, got my reading material, and headed off to the bank.
Of course I know the bank teller (small town, remember), so we chatted about gardens, the weather, and all that good neighbor talk while she cashed my checks. Then I was off to the post office, where too - both the workers are acquaintances, so we chatted about the world as I got my stamps. It's amazing how those small interactions can put a smile on my face.
The walk home was beautiful - sun shining, birds all over. Days like this, as simple as walking around town doing errands, are to me a great Blessing. It is a Blessing that I've been able to move to part time work. It's a Blessing that we live in this amazing little town. It's a Blessing that the library had my book on the shelf.
So many people rush through life missing all of these Blessings. They expect things, assume things, and demand them. When what we all NEED to do is be thankful for them.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
on God's Blessings....
When I took the leap back on October 20th, 2011, leaving that high profile management job, I had no idea where it would take me. I gave it up. One of the hardest things to do - give it up to God. I prayed that he give me signs, lead me to my path.
There were so many signs. I would start to think about a new career or job, and something would get in the way. When that happened, I knew instantly that God was making sure I didn't take the wrong turn. After many possibilities, and obstacles, I'd like to bring you up to speed on my life today.
I have found myself richly Blessed with two opportunities that I am able to follow. I was called in February by a bakery near here asking me to sign on part time, to build their quality program, and improve production efficiencies and quality. I get to start from scratch, using all of my 19 years of experience and knowledge. I work mostly from home, in my comfies, by the fireplace, only commuting to the plant every couple of weeks to catch up. It's an amazing opportunity, where I feel so appreciated, needed, and respected.
Additionally, a friend of mine suggested I look into substitute teaching. I've often thought that I should have been a teacher, but in hindsight, the last 19 years have been necessary. What I gained from my job I would never have gotten if I'd been a teacher all these years. So I got my sub teaching certificate, turned it in last Monday, and by Tuesday had gotten a call. I subbed three days this week with an amazing group of 5th graders, and it was one of the most rewarding three days I've had in years. I loved working with the kids - both the good AND the bad. Trying to help, trying to make a difference. And they listened. And they asked questions. And they interacted. I absolutely LOVED it. More than I even thought I would. And I think they did too.
One child told me I was "the best sub ever". Another thanked me at the end of the day Wednesday for "being an excellent sub.". One stopped me and told me I should really think about being a teacher ALL the time. Wow. Talk about warm fuzzies. What a great way to end the day. While I'm enjoying my day off today to catch up, I miss them already. :-) But I already got called again last night - and I'll be working with 4th graders tomorrow. So I don't have to wait TOO long to dig back in!
I've always known that being in a place in life when I CAN just quit my job in blind Faith is a Blessing. I know that many cannot do it. And I am very thankful that our life living well below our means, not having a lot of debt, has brought me to this place. That at 41, I can work part time - doing things I absolutely love. Pair that with the amazing family and friends that surround me, and I know that I am ridiculously Blessed, and that God has given me all that I have. And for that, I am so very grateful. There are not words to explain how grateful. It is only through my actions that I can show it.
So my next "job" is to give back. As thanks for all that God Blesses me with. I need to enrich OTHERS. And that's a job I will adore even more than the others I have.
God Bless!
There were so many signs. I would start to think about a new career or job, and something would get in the way. When that happened, I knew instantly that God was making sure I didn't take the wrong turn. After many possibilities, and obstacles, I'd like to bring you up to speed on my life today.
I have found myself richly Blessed with two opportunities that I am able to follow. I was called in February by a bakery near here asking me to sign on part time, to build their quality program, and improve production efficiencies and quality. I get to start from scratch, using all of my 19 years of experience and knowledge. I work mostly from home, in my comfies, by the fireplace, only commuting to the plant every couple of weeks to catch up. It's an amazing opportunity, where I feel so appreciated, needed, and respected.
Additionally, a friend of mine suggested I look into substitute teaching. I've often thought that I should have been a teacher, but in hindsight, the last 19 years have been necessary. What I gained from my job I would never have gotten if I'd been a teacher all these years. So I got my sub teaching certificate, turned it in last Monday, and by Tuesday had gotten a call. I subbed three days this week with an amazing group of 5th graders, and it was one of the most rewarding three days I've had in years. I loved working with the kids - both the good AND the bad. Trying to help, trying to make a difference. And they listened. And they asked questions. And they interacted. I absolutely LOVED it. More than I even thought I would. And I think they did too.
One child told me I was "the best sub ever". Another thanked me at the end of the day Wednesday for "being an excellent sub.". One stopped me and told me I should really think about being a teacher ALL the time. Wow. Talk about warm fuzzies. What a great way to end the day. While I'm enjoying my day off today to catch up, I miss them already. :-) But I already got called again last night - and I'll be working with 4th graders tomorrow. So I don't have to wait TOO long to dig back in!
I've always known that being in a place in life when I CAN just quit my job in blind Faith is a Blessing. I know that many cannot do it. And I am very thankful that our life living well below our means, not having a lot of debt, has brought me to this place. That at 41, I can work part time - doing things I absolutely love. Pair that with the amazing family and friends that surround me, and I know that I am ridiculously Blessed, and that God has given me all that I have. And for that, I am so very grateful. There are not words to explain how grateful. It is only through my actions that I can show it.
So my next "job" is to give back. As thanks for all that God Blesses me with. I need to enrich OTHERS. And that's a job I will adore even more than the others I have.
God Bless!
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