emotions...

Today I had a meeting - a kick off to the CMN campaign. I go every year, inspired by the amazing stories of the children and their families. And today was no different. I realized how Blessed I am to have a healthy family, a reminder to take nothing for granted.

Today at the kickoff, there was a woman who looked so much like my mom did. And it's been eating at me all night. I miss her so dearly. I'm still sad at all in my life she's not here to share. The good and the bad. I miss sharing lunch with her, keeping her up to date on work, and the kids. I miss being able to tell her exciting news.

I so hope mom is proud of me. I try very hard to live up to who she was. I am trying to raise my children like she raised me. I'm trying mom.

Had some tough life lessons cross our paths these last two days - and dd told me thanks for being the mom that I am. I answered her this: "I was raised to be caring, loving, tolerant, and non-judging, and I hope I'm raising them the same way".

I truly was raised that way. My mom never judged - not on religion, color, social status, nothing. She accepted me no matter what path I took, supporting me in my screw ups, and applauding my successes. It's THAT that I miss of her. I love you mom!

my apologies...

Cannot believe it's been so long. Today is Feb 7, 2011. I find myself happy to have the holidays over, celebrating the Packers superbowl win, and dealing with stress issues in my personal life and work as well.

I am focusing right now on surrounding myself with positive people, and using my days to do those things that FULFILL my life.

I am working on leaving a lasting impact. ON THE WORLD. Through being a positive influence, through leading by example, through being something to someone. There are so many people in this world who are in need, hurting, confused, lost, or just misguided. How can I make a difference to them?